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Thursday, 30 November 2006

Getting Ready | 5:51:00 pm | 0 Comments



ayun! i`m preparing myself on the very very very long post that i`m planning to do. it`s kinda more of an article thingy about my goodbyes, thanks and those stuffs to angel... i`m very much ready to move on!

anyways, i was just reading my past 3 posts and recognized the dates.. and to my surprise the dates were like really really close to each other.. the first post was the 10th of november when i was kinda avoiding him so he will miss me and also prevent myself from demanding waaaay waaaay too much from him... then the 2nd post was the 12th... when we broke up... i can't believe that in just mere 2 days everything changed and now we haven't spoken for a week... and for the record our break-up is nearly 3 weeks and it's killing me really bad...

anyways, as i said... i`m very much ready to move on... my parents made me realise that there is more to life than having someone cuddling you around... and i have tons of friends to support me... atleast now i don`t feel neglected... MASAYA NA AKO!





Thursday, 16 November 2006

One Long Day | 5:00:00 am | 0 Comments



I finally woke up and realised that I don't have to mess up my life all just because of him... Although I am in grief and still trying to move on from our huge fight, I still managed to pick myself up and go to college... This day really went long and the usual things seems to just go on and on... But still I survived it...

My classmates kinda realised that I'm not in my best condition today and that my eyes doesn't look as cheerful as it is before... It's sweet but I'm not buying it, so I just simply told them that I was fine and in a good manner of course...

I wasn't really in the mood to do anything today, so I just went home early... But like 2 stops away from our house I called Mark and asked him if we could hang out but he was busy... So yeh, I just went home then checked who's online, checked my e-mails... And went straight to bed...





Sunday, 12 November 2006

Why Does It Have To Be This Way? | 5:14:00 pm | 0 Comments



just yesterday morning we were fine... we were cuddling each other, kissing and seems like very much in love... but just 20 minutes later after that, it's all gone...

he told me that he doesn't want to hurt me.
(if you don't, then stay...)
he told me that i cannot accept his situation.
(why don't he let me in?)
he told me that our relationship would fail once he go back to the philippines. (if you really love me, it's worth a try...)

i didn't understand him at all... everything he said didn't make sense... we're in a relationship and we should be fighting in that situation together...





Friday, 10 November 2006

Good Morning | 6:38:00 pm | 0 Comments



'gudmorning toni ko...' nyak! i hope so. i haven't heard from him since last midnight when he asked me to call him after his work. i don't know what i'm doing, but i'm trying my best to stay as far away as i can to give him space and avoid hurting myself. if he does not make any effort in getting in touch with me and winning me back, it's definitely over. he just clearly proved that he doesn't care for me, at all.

anyways, i got coursework due on monday and tuesday. and i haven't even done anything. not even a single bit of it. i better start working on it now.