I haven't got anything sensible to post. So instead I played around with some photos. I took these a few hours ago. He doesn't like his picture taken so I stole it.





And yeah btw, I got a new haircut last Sunday.


Love it.








Yes it is. I heard my parents speaking to each other this morning. I heard them say that they are going to send me back on the 13th of April considering that I'll be home from America on the 10th. Which means I only have a day or two to say goodbye to my friends. They actually did that on purpose so I won't be able to enjoy my last few days with the best people that I had.

I really used to want this, to go home start over and just leave everything behind here. The bad memories, the nostalgia and everything else that made me feel so lonely and shattered. But then again a part of me thought, that I haven't been with my old friends for nearly three years. I haven't spoken with them except for simple 'hi' 'hello' and 'how are you' once in a while. A lot of things have changed for the past few years and I don't even know if I will be able to cope up with those changes. When I decided that I wanted to go home I was so sure, because I was bitter and in pain and thought that only those people that I know and trusted will be the ones that can help and understand me. Forgetting the fact that, I made a bunch of new friends that I can trust and run to and now, it really hurts that I have to leave them.

And now, when everything I wanted is near to me. It just seemed not right, I just want to take it all back.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes, they walk away. Sometimes, they act up and force you to take a stand. Sometimes, they die. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. Your need has been answered, and now it is time to move on.

I grabbed this one from Xyla's blog found it really inspiring. It explains why people come and go. And if you read through it and reflect on it you will know and understand how to appreciate every single person that comes into your life.

REASON ~ It is the part that really struck me the most, I'm sure that all of us can relate into a situation where someone comes into your life and just suddenly loses them without knowing why. And it hurts so much that no matter how hard you fight for it, you cannot have the relationship that you had with that certain person back. I finally understood why sometimes life can be so unfair, that you had to lose someone you really care about and that you got to have your heart broken. But then again as it is said on the last line of that paragraph 'We must realize that our needs have been met, our desire fulfilled and their work is done.' and be thankful that even for a short time they came and stepped into our lives but changed it forever.

When people come into our life we do not know what their purpose is neither do we know if they are only going to stay for a reason, a season or a lifetime. All we have to do is learn to appreciate and make the most out of the time that we share with them. Tell them how much you care and be the person that they will remember, because we never know it may be the last time that we will see them. Have fun and laugh, and keep the memories in your heart as those are the things that will make you a better person now and in the future.








May bagay na gumugulo sa isipan ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Kukunin bang muli kahit na ang bagay na ito ang sumira sa kalahati ng katauhan ko o mananatili na lamang ba ako kung nasaan ako ngayon?

Matagal ko ng gusto ito. Pinangarap ko ng ilang taon. Ngayon heto na sya sa harapan ko, kaylangan ko na lamang hawakan at gawing akin. Pero may mga bumabagabag sa aking isip.

Dapat ba akong magtiwala muli? Pagsisisihan ko ba kapag hindi? Masyado pa bang maaga? Tama ba? Ang daming tanong, ginugulo lamang ako.

"Hindi ko pinipigilan ang sarili kong gawin kung ano ang nararamdaman ko. Dahil ang pinagsisisihan natin hindi yung mga bagay na ginawa natin. Kung hindi yung mga bagay na hindi natin ginawa."

Hindi ko tuloy mapanindigan ang sarili ko ngayon. Nung sinabi ko yang mga bagay na yan kagabi, para bang siguradong sigurado ako sa sarili ko. Pero hindi pala. Dahil gustong-gusto ko ito. Alam ko na magiging masaya ako. Ngunit, natatakot ako na magtiwalang muli. At baka may masaktan lamang dahil isang desisyon na napaghandaan ko na ng matagal, isang desisyon na maaaring makakasakit lamang kapag kinuha ko ito.

Gusto kong kunin. Pero tama ba? Baka may masaktan lamang. Ano ang dapat kong gawin?








Yes I am! Better things are about to come my way, I can clearly see it. I'm finally getting used to the new things that came to my life and learned to appreciate it after locking myself up in this tiny room for the past few months. Once and for all I've woken up from my nightmare, stood up on my two feet with my head up high and said 'I'll be fine.' All thanks to my very supportive friends who were there to help me pick myself up, glue them together and hold them until they are dry.

My prayers did not exactly go the way they were supposed to be. But God Almighty is really great for giving me a better choice in my life and giving me the best people that I can cling to. I may not have been the best christian but He still saw me as His daughter even though I was slowly turning my back from Him.

For the past few days I just felt so great. To be honest, there were things that I did that I wasn't proud of, but sometimes the wrong things that you do in your life becomes the door a brighter light ahead of you.