Sunday, 18 March 2007
This Time, It's for Real
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6:09:00 am |
Yes it is. I heard my parents speaking to each other this morning. I heard them say that they are going to send me back on the 13th of April considering that I'll be home from America on the 10th. Which means I only have a day or two to say goodbye to my friends. They actually did that on purpose so I won't be able to enjoy my last few days with the best people that I had.
I really used to want this, to go home start over and just leave everything behind here. The bad memories, the nostalgia and everything else that made me feel so lonely and shattered. But then again a part of me thought, that I haven't been with my old friends for nearly three years. I haven't spoken with them except for simple
'hi' 'hello' and
'how are you' once in a while. A lot of things have changed for the past few years and I don't even know if I will be able to cope up with those changes. When I decided that I wanted to go home I was so sure, because I was bitter and in pain and thought that only those people that I know and trusted will be the ones that can help and understand me. Forgetting the fact that, I made a bunch of new friends that I can trust and run to and now, it really hurts that I have to leave them.
And now, when everything I wanted is near to me. It just seemed not right, I just want to take it all back.
Reason, Season, Lifetime.
November 2006
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Sometimes we want something so much then when it's right in front of us, we don't want it as much as we thought we would.
So sure na ba talaga yun? Aren't you in college here? :)
i actually dropped out in college because of that d*mn break-up. then i wanted to go home so much coz i felt really really lonely.
ngayon na sobrang totoo na sya natakot ako ng sobra. parang biglang nagbago yung isip ko. this is it! it's for real.
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